in regards to the above…
seriously, i am a disgrace.
most people dont have rhythm and thats what ruins it.
but for me its not so much rhythm but skill…
especially when is comes to “freaking”
im the good girl.
i havent done anything.
seriously just play 10 fingers with me…
i promise you i will win.
that being said.. i obviously have no experience in “freaking.”
most of the time this is ok…
but at a dance…
no so much.
i told him i couldnt dance.
straight up. i told him.
i asked him to teach me.
at the dance there wasnt time to learn…
and again i told him i couldnt dance.
but he must have thought i was kidding?
so he made me.
and i was bad..
and i was embarrassed.
and he realized i was bad.
and he told me to practice.
then he walked away…
sometimes i wish i wasnt such a good girl…
SHE IS BEING POSSESSED BY LORETTA!!!
“now it’s my turn to feel.”
but actually i love this part.
its kind of beautiful.
but its kind of sad too.
even perfection is flawed.
love your imperfections.
they are the best parts about you :)
this movie is the best.
but have you guys seen the end?
is actually pretty messed up…
i’m not gonna ruin it for you but yeah…
ps i love ricky ullman.
so, as you might have gathered from my last post,
this past week was amazing
i made new friends. saw some great schools. basically lived the life.
and now i’m home.
and obviously it sucks.
but i’m not here long.
i leave again tomorrow.
i’m going to pepperdine for a week for a leadership conference.
and i’m worried.
i’m worried that it will be NOTHING in comparison to this past week.
i’m worried the people won’t be as amazing.
actually i’m sure they wont be.
i’m worried they wont be accepting.
i’m worried they will be sticks in the mud.
i’ve never gone somewhere knowing no one…
i have no one to run back to if the new friendships don’t work out.
i’m friendly. i can do this. i’m gonna be me. i’m gonna make it.
i hope. *gulp*
I got tumblr for my iPhone ^_^ expect a lot more posts! <3
as i mentioned in my previous post
tomorrow i am embarking on the west coast college tour.
initially i was stoked.
OMG ALL MY FRIENDS AND I ARE GONNA HAVE SO MUCH FUN!
just kidding none of my friends are going.
OMG THERE ARE GOING TO BE SO MANY HOT COLLEGE GUYS!
just kidding all of the colleges aren’t in session right now.
OMG MAYBE I’LL MEET A GUY FROM ONE OF THE OTHER SCHOOLS GOING!
just kidding there is only one boy from another school going on this trip.
his name is nicholas from notre dame?
well hello nicholas… you better be awesome.
i’m banking on you being awesome.
OH EM GEE IM SOOO EXCITED :D :D :D <3333
tomorrow, i will embark on a journey.
i will travel hundreds -maybe thousands- of miles.
i will have many stops along the way.
i will explore the great unknown.
i will have the time of my life!
… LOL JK I’m going on the west coast college tour.
remember the simpler days
when it was just you and me?
remember when you changed my life
remember all the times we shared
under the summer sun?
remember being here with me
when everything was fun?
remember when the music
was everything to you?
remember when your music
caused my heart to sing too?
remember when we
made new friends?
remember our hugs
that’d never end?
why cant we go back to then?
all i really want in life for someone to love me.
i tend to fall hard.
i bruise easily.
i’ve started to count the cuts and bruises on my heart from all the times i’ve fallen.
some of the cuts are almost gone.
healed with time and the help of friends
but others are deep and rough and still bleeding profusely.
its hard to fall so many times and have no one there to catch me.
it’s dangerous.i need a safety net.
i need to keep my balance.
but mostly i need a band aid.
or a doctor…
these cuts are scary. they may be killing me.
I dont know if you have ever experienced this but…
have you ever met a new guy and thought he was pretty cool/nice/sweet/cute but never expected to see him again?
this time…. i saw him again.
he asked me to see him.
have you ever really thought a guy was cool/nice/sweet/cute but were sure he thought you were annoying?
i thought that.
but he surprised me.
he talked to me.
but i thought he was just talking to everyone… i wasnt special. i couldnt be, he’s too cute.
but then i saw him again.
he is much more than cute.
he is talented. he is sweet. he is exactly my type.
but things didnt go as planned.
and again i thought.. well that’s the end of that.
but then he surprised me again.
he said hello.
who knew one word could fill me with so much hope?
but that was stupid.
i am stupid.
one word doesnt mean he likes me.
so when i tried to talk to him. i shouldnt have expected a reply.
i shouldnt have expected him to want to see me again.
but i did.
now im left with this empty feeling.
all because of my stupid hope.
all because i’m just plain stupid.
what are you talking about? harry potter is real! what? no! i’m not a muggle! … my hogwarts acceptance just got lost in the owl post… DONT MAKE ME STUPEFY YOU!
i swear to god… i think someone snuck into my heart and pulled this post out…
too bad i’m done waiting.